Christmas time 2010. Midnight with Mel, Anita, and others. Stayed for a few cigarettes and left the small apartment. Anita looked happy and radiant that night, and Alex seemed very relaxed yet eager to get back our Chicago apartment. I wasn't as usually dressed for the occasion I used to be better at that but I've been having a few years of bad hair, wardrobe, and its not me. Misery loves company so with the new year resolutions I can add to hurrying up with my shopping.
Mike came along with us, Anitas friend. I've heard a lot of good things about him and seen him a year ago over drinks in Lakeview, IL. We talked about jobs and housing over a cigarette or two while Al and Anita that night were picking on each other yet over what I only could imagine.
THe next few weeks after the visit with Mel I wanted to call her and spend time with her but I couldn't dial her number slow enough and I forgot to answer her call if she did call back. I dialed her number a few times before the visit but I can't remember if those times I called then were before really or after our visit. I knew Ihas heard that she was working and then not working with her mom at an office.
I missed our chain smoking night in Sarasota Florida and sitting with her, her brother, and then husband Brian in their little home near one of the raw beautiful purest of beaches in Florida. I actually enjoyed the sand stuck in my teeth and scratching it between my sweaty thighs. Mel was studying to become a respectable model and her photos were growing successfully throughout the years.
Today she still takes wonderful photos on the beach with her photographer which may have changed since she moved home to Indiana. I do miss her and hope she and I will get in touch again while I think about the time I created my own headshots thoughtout the years and although do not compare to Mels professional shots, I've had a lot of fun doing. As gratitude toward passing aquaintances who model, taking the headshot photos of myself were inspired by these women as I learned poise and discovered knew confidence in my nonverbal communication skills. Hope to grow in the modeling angels and styles of art and empowerment.
